I have so much to do and by the looks of the things I doubt if I will ever get it done. I kept postponing the deadlines and here goes a year in a blink.
First there is this favourite dress of mine I had promised myself I would fit into by losing the few extra pounds. I had bought the dress for the very reason that it was a size too small for me. Looking back I can’t believe I had been fanciful enough to think such a reason could get me to shed those extra pounds off. Now I will have to get myself a new dress if I am to go out.
Well the list only keeps getting longer. For about a year now I have been trying to get that new email of my friend who migrated to states. For reasons best known to her she changed her mail address just before she left.
I need a new bag too not to mention a pair of comfortable shoes and oh some warm socks too I am fed up of wearing these mismatching ones everyday.
Then there are quite a few books to finish and some movies too. I guess I could do with a hair cut too which I managed to put off for the entire summer. Not to mention that short story I had thought of finishing and trying my luck at getting it published.
I know I am late to visit my granny too. I had promised by brother I would send him some of the pictures of my cousin’s weeding. Then there is that treat I have to manage. How I have absolutely no idea.
These are the lighter side of the things I could not get done. I had also tired my luck at a new job but that did not work out. There are a few things just as important that did not work out for me this year.
Yet I am happy with my life. With what little I have managed to do. I am the first one to own up that indeed what I have done is very little / insignificant in comparison to what I couldn’t get done. But trying to explain that to my near and dear ones is a difficult task at which I fail miserably.
Of course I know that things could have gotten better just as they keep saying, with a little more effort from me. But I thank my lucky stars for not making it worst.
I know I could have set a few grudges against a few people I know have not done right to me. I know I have been set up by a few others and also been the laughing stock for yet some others.
I could have earned a few more bucks and saved a little more too. I know I could have done without having taken a few bold steps I took willingly that backfired on me. I know I should not have simply taken a few things for granted or at least should have been more circumspect. But one can’t live one’s life saying what if or only if.
The year has been of learning for me and that too the hard way. But somehow I have no regrets about it. For how else was I to know for myself and learn for myself that there are not all good people around. Yet I hold nothing against these people and am glad the year went by the way it did. Happily for me it didn’t go any worst than it did. For I know it could have been a lot worst. I hope the coming years are just as good as this one was. Amen.
– Pratichya Dulal
